Daddy, Your Little Princess Misses You

May 3, 2015

10:52PM

I am feeling lost. My Mom and I are fighting, I want to call my Dad and talk to him but I can't.

I know it isn't his fault, but I just need to talk to him.

He is in a better place. He isn't in pain. He doesn't have any worries...

AND he is able to be closer to me than ever before.

There is a reason it happened when it did. I just wish I knew. I was not ready!

I NEED my daddy. I would give up everything in the world to have just one more day with you.

I know you don't like to see me upset, but I am hurting bad right now and have no one to talk to.

I can't go through this without you. Show me a sign. I need to know that I am not alone and you are here with me.

I need to know you are holding my hand, aiding me in decisions.

AND most of all proud of me. It made me feel good knowing I made you proud. Everyone I talked to told me.

I am glad I was able to do something right. It seems like everything in life is going wrong and my mom makes me feel like I'm a monster.

Somehow you're able to make me feel like a respectable person again.

Though I, or anyone else was ready for you leave use, I don't want you to think I'm mad at you!

I wanted you out of Trotwood because it wasn't the safest. Looks like I got what I wanted. It wasn't what I anticipated, but it is what it is.

I was scared for you to be on your own and still have treatments to go through. Anything can happen when you're alone, and no one would know.

There is a reason you left when you did. You were a GREAT person.

It was planned for Auntie to find you. It wasn't meant for you to sit there on your own.

I'm at this wedding last weekend and all I can think of is my Dad won't be physically with me on this day.

I "know" you will be there, but you won't be there to walk me down the aisle or give me away or dance with me.

I promise in everything I do, I will continue to do it in your name and make you proud.

I love you with every hair on my back and I appreciate everything you have done and will continue to do for me.

I'll send you cards like I used to. Maybe even some balloons filled with notes and confetti.

I hope it leaves you with a smile. It'll help me find peace and positivity.

I am going to try and go to sleep now.

I hope you read my message and can give me some strength and guidance.

I love you!

-your little princess

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