Dreaming of You

September 20, 2015

8:10AM

I got the worst sleep last night.

I think some of my worst sleep in a long time.

I had a dream about you.

We were at your house, you were sick, but not like visible sick.

Auntie, Karolyn, Mike, and I were helping to clear a bunch of stuff out of the house.

We knew the time was soon, but didn't exactly know when.

We were trying to help you get rid of things. You had SOOOO much.

This is the first time I have dreamt about you.

AND I don't know how to feel about it.

I was happy to see you talking and eating, but once I registered you were in my dream, I felt paralyzed.

I didn't know what to do.

That's when I decided to write and tell you about it.

Dream dictionary said I haven't come to terms or I am trying to say goodbye.

The second makes the most sense.

I talked to you over the weekend, like we always did.

and four days passed and a lot happened within that time.

I need you to visit me more often.

Remind me everything is going to be okay and that I am doing great!

These first three weeks have been draining.

It feels like I keep doing things wrong.

I need to hear that I am doing something well,

that everything will be okay.

You did that for me and now I don't have that anymore and it's taking its toll on me.

Making me feel incompetent.

I could call Auntie, but she has enough on her plate.

I don't want her to be overloaded.

People often place their struggles on her back.

It'll get heavy and weigh her down.

Just like it would for anyone in those shoes.

Though it was hard at first, I am glad you came to visit.

I hope you come back to visit soon.

I NEED it!

Love you too!

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